PenDraggin'

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PenDraggin'...

Aside from AlterEgo ImageWorks,
I enjoy writing... poetry, prose, short stories, and what I call
MindFlights...

Welcome to my inner realm...
the deepest, darkest recesses of my mind...

My Daughters and Me LJT ‘98

I helped give you life,
and I’d like you to see,
in your own special way,
you give life back to me.

My rays of sunshine,
my source of hope,
in trying times,
my reason to cope.

When I’m down,
believe it’s true,
what helps me go on,
are my thoughts of you.

At times, I don’t talk much,
and others, more than I should.
I do truly mean well,
and try to do good.

I need to listen more,
and open my eyes,
to see what you’re saying,
and hear your cries.

I know I’m not perfect,
never claimed to be.
But, if you look inside,
there’s some good parts to me.

There is no means,
by which to measure,
the depth of my love,
that’ll last forever.

I pray it’s in your heart,
to please forgive me,
and give us a chance,
Love always, Daddy.

Copyright © 1998 by Lance Trottier

My Daughters LJT ‘o1

My two daughters
how beautiful they are
I’m amazed the short time
it took to come this far.

I’ve watched them grow
from tiny to teen
and tried to guide them
in which way they lean.

They’ve made mistakes
as I knew they would
but, they’re trying to grow
and make their life good.

I don’t control them
I just try to guide
they make their own choices
and they know I’ve tried.

My job isn’t done
and never will be
yet, I love my daughters
always and unconditionally.

Copyright © 2oo1 by Lance Trottier

My Little Nikita LJT ‘o1

I have yet another daughter
who’s special to me.
She’s not of my blood
as I’d like her to be.

She’s beautiful and sweet
I love her as my own
All this I want her to see
and hope it has shown.

She has a place in my heart
and always will be
my Little Nikita
so special to me.

So, my Little Nikita
my love is true
Please know in your heart
Daddy loves you!

Copyright © 2oo1 by Lance Trottier

I Dreamt LJT ‘o3

I dreamt we were
Holding hands
Walking one day
Feeling closeness
Feeling free
Loving each other
Our special way

Meandering through
Open fields and
Pastures green
Through beds
Of wildflowers
Aromas smelt
And beauty seen

Into lush forest
Through glen
And dale
Rolling hills
Gentle sweeps
Along marshy
Fields of cattail

On sandy beaches
Foaming breakers
And over dune
Grassy seascapes
Beyond jetty
And onward to
A quiet lagoon

We journey on
After rest
In that place
Holding hands
We traverse far
To our garden
Our private space

We make love
Under dome
Of twinkling stars
Passionate love
Gentle touch
We anoint
This garden of ours

Copyright © 2oo3 by Lance Trottier

Misty Tear LJT ‘o1

(This was written in response to an email
I received about a little girl who was abused,
until the abuse killed her. Her name was
Misty.)

A damned tough read
without shed of tear.
To all abusive parents
Who are out there,
please harm them not.
I pray to god above,
rather than hurt them,
cherish them with love.
To all you poor children,
know that we care.
We do not condone this
and shed a ‘Misty Tear’.

Copyright © 2oo1 by Lance Trottier

I Am The Knight LJT
‘o3

I am the knight
I enter you
in your sleepy mind
to take you away
to my realm
a far different world
than any you’ll find

I am the knight
alas, come journey
along with me
together we’ll vanquish
your lonesome sleep
to soar like the hawk
to my realm, utterly free

Copyright © 2oo3 by Lance Trottier

I Am The Night [dark] LJT ‘o7

I am the night
I ravage you
in your sleepy mind
to take you away
to my realm
a far darker world
than any you’ll find

I am the night
Oh yes, I will drag you
down with me
and I will torture
your innermost soul
to drown like the corpse
sinking to utter misery

Copyright © 2oo7 by Lance Trottier

Absence of Being LJT ‘o3

That unholy place
Where you become
Who others expect you to be

That darkened place
Where heart is lost
Where soul is no longer free

I was in that place
For quite a long time
Existing unhappily

But, I prefer to go on
In this, my own way
To live out my life as ME

Copyright © 2oo3 by Lance Trottier

Darkness LJT ‘o1

Mind and heart
Torment somber soul
Memories, images past
Haunt deepest recesses
Love felt, love lost
Burdened life’s traveler
Seeking solace
Longing rest
Yearning peace
Lusting tranquility
Journeying onward
To no avail…

…and to what end

Copyright © 2oo1 by Lance Trottier

Did You… LJT ‘00

(This is the poem version of lyrics I wrote.)

You came to me when I was out of my mind
Touched me, heart, mind, body and soul
Whispered my name and drew me unto you.
You came to me that fateful moment in time
Altered my universe, my thoughts, my being
Brought a reason, a purpose to my life.

You brought us together as one
Turned dense fog into bright sunshine
Created a warm glow in my darkness.
You brought a quiet peace to my soul
Made me feel things that I have missed
Gave truth, a meaning to my Reality.

Did you hear me sighing your name?
Did you feel me touch your heart?
Did you feel my hand on your thigh?
Did you tingle as I kissed your lips?
Did you bother to ask yourself why?

Did you listen as I breathed in your ear,
“My Angel, I love you.”?

Copyright © 2000 by Lance Trottier

Love is LJT ‘99

Love is:
a tough emotion…

It can be a beautiful, awesome bud in bloom.
Or it can be as the thorn of the stem.

It can, at times, be both,
wonderful and painful simultaneously.

Love is what we make of it.

Copyright © 1999 by Lance Trottier

Love Is Growing LJT ‘o1

Love is growing inside of me,
a love I’d love to share with thee.

You’re in my heart all through the day
and in the night, in dreams you stay.

I kiss your lips, fingers through your hair,
I hold you close and keep you there.

I look in your eyes, touch your skin
and inside I feel sweet passions begin.

We can’t know what our future will hold,
and never will unless it’s told.

You feel the same way, or so it seems,
step into my life and out of my dreams.

I know you’re scared and so am I,
but, believe it or not, that is a good sign.

Come to me, all else aside
and be with me, your feelings abide.

Come to me so we can explore
all that we are and maybe more.

It seems that you feel the same way,
yet, out of confusion, you stay away.

We could be each others dreams,
it’s already begun, or so it seems.

Copyright © 2oo1 by Lance Trottier

I Have LJT ‘o1

I have watched you dance
I have gazed into your eyes
I have felt your smile
causing new feelings to arise.

I have heard your voice
I have touched your skin
I have felt your touch
new emotions begin.

I have felt your sweet breath
I have kissed your lips
I have brushed your cheek
with my fingertips.

I have felt your body
I have held you close
I have sensed your warmth
a connection between us both.

Open your eyes
look at me
I can only hope
that you love what you see.

Copyright © 2oo1 by Lance Trottier

Space LJT ‘98

(This is the poem version of SPACE)

In this world
limited light
Space invades
mind takes flight

Mind soaring
soul is free
Alone here
inside me

Sense of warmth
encircle moon
Feel at peace
to end too soon

Feel so cold
no longer free
Time returns
back to Reality

Copyright © 1998 by Lance Trottier

Scars LJT ‘o1

hurtful pain
stinging rain
fresh scars
form again
ghosts anew
love askew
broken heart
feeling blue
again alone
love gone
inside i tremble
to the bone
scars real
never quite heal
love again
i try to feel
hopes return
love again
then it goes
another burn

Copyright © 2oo1 by Lance Trottier

Trust LJT '00

Ever elusive,
just beyond reach.
Hard to give,
also, to keep.
Shadow to follow me,
taunt me,
beckon me,
haunt me.
Seemingly solidness,
fleeting, fading,
disappearing ever
into nothingness.
Reappearing, then,
I know not where,
know not when,
only to slip away again.
As with the tide,
it ebbs, it flows.
times it comes,
ever it goes.
See it in faces
all around me.
Sense it in places,
ever surrounds me.
Now, I must ask:
To grasp it,
and nurture it,
can I ever learn.
Not make it flee,
never to return?

Copyright ©2000 Lance Trottier

Support LJT '98

I'm finding support
in the strangest places
In family, acquaintances
in strangers faces.
The family,
that I know I've hurt
Somehow, someway,
look beyond the dirt.
Acquaintances,
who barely know me tell me,
"It'll be okay,
just wait and see."
In strangers
quick with a smile
who seem to know
and chat for awhile.
I guess I'm not as alone
as inside I feel
but, takes time,
perhaps to accept it as real.
I'll be all right
I think it's safe to say
with all this support
that's come my way.
I thank you all
for the kindness
shown me
I could never repay you
how can I possibly?

Copyright ©1998 Lance Trottier

You LJT '01

I close my eyes
breathe a sigh
whispered kiss
upon my lips
In my mind
a vision lingers
an oasis
a mirage
yet vivid
In my ears
I hear melody
soft and sweet
enchanting siren
Again I sigh
whispered kiss
that is your name
behold the vision
that is your face
hear the melody
that is your voice

Copyright ©2001 Lance Trottier

Reflections LJT '98

Reflections of me
I try to see
in water
a mirror
the cup of coffee
here next to me.

In the eyes of You
talking to me
I look in their pools
and into their depth
what do You see
in this person called ME?
Is there a beauty
inside of me?
Can I expose it
so You can see
my hidden Reality?

Copyright ©1998 Lance Trottier

Oh, Girl LJT'01

Oh, Girl,
can't You see
we belong together
You and me.

Heart, mind,
body, soul
these four things
from me You stole.

Here, now,
Truth I say
to You,
I willfully gave them away.

Truer Love
never you'll know
Can't You feel
all I've tried hard to show?

Possessions,
I have few you see
what I am offering You
is all of me.

Copyright ©2001 Lance Trottier

My Destiny LJT '01

I know you're out there
though I know not where
I sense You
I feel You
growing ever near.
Come closer to me
You, my destiny
that I may know
and can touch
what our love is to be.
Vague outline
in the mist
softly my cheek kissed
warm embrace
tender touch
my heart,
gentle twist.
Come closer to me
You, my destiny
that I may know
and can touch
what our love is to be.

Copyright ©2001 Lance Trottier

Love... LJT '00

Though the miles
separate us
I feel your Love
in heart body
soul and mind.
I long so
every moment
my Love
to feel your body
close to mine.
My Love is real
so very true
dont You fret
our hearts entwine.

Copyright ©2000 Lance Trottier

Mistakes I’ve Made LJT ‘07

I’ll never rest a single moment
until my daughter comes to me
And says, “I’ve made my mistakes
And for them, Dad, I am sorry.”

“I’ve done so much wrong
In this, my young life
But all I can ask of you is
Dad, can you please forgive me?”

For then, my beautiful daughter
Will know what Daddy tried to say
Whenever I stated this simple line,
“I’m not perfect, never claimed to be.”

And at this time I hope that she
Will realize that I’ve also made mine
And I hope that it comes to pass
That she’ll also forgive me.

It will be then that I will know
How big my daughter has grown
And I will hope beyond hope
that the depth of my love she will see.

Copyright ©2007 Lance Trottier

DEAR LOVE                               LJT '04

No, Dear Love,
      Eternity, Forever,
              each is not too long.
    Forever, Dear Love
                is the time
                          that I’ve taken you on.
My Dear Love,
      I do love thee
               with all of my heart
    And, Dear Love,
                never and a day
                          shall we dare part.
Oh, Dear Love,
     How I do love thee,
             Forever and a day
    For, Dear Love
           I say to you,
             In love ever we will stay.

                       Copyright © 2oo7 by Lance Trottier

Four Sides To The Coin LJT ‘o5

I am not the old folk
but have known quite a few
I am not the nurse or the aide
but have seen what they do.

Not one of the three
a position that I’d want
for memories I do have
and how they still haunt.

I’ve seen nurses and aides
who truly were good
and cared quite a lot
and did the best they could.

I’ve seen some of the aged
some very grumpy and stern
who made the nurses and aides
work hard for what they earn.

And I’ve seen some elderly
all smiling and oh so spry
who were gentle and caring
and bring tears to your eye.

Yet, I’ve seen some aides
and more than one cruel nurse
whose treatment of the old
that I so strongly curse.

I did have a Gram
who was a kindly old lady
and her nurses aide
whose treatment was most shady.

Four sides to the coin
so you see that I have seen
some truly were real good
but some had conscience unclean.

Copyright © 2oo6 by Lance Trottier

the colours of my world LJT ‘o7

the colours
of my world
ashen grey
the hues
of my world
faded away
the fire
in my eyes
now at bay
the life
in my soul
gone astray

Copyright © 2oo7 by Lance Trottier

What Happened... LJT ‘o5

What happened to the little girl
that Daddy once knew?
Where is that little girl
whose feelings I knew to be so true?

What happened to the little girl
who cared deeply what Daddy thought?
Where is that little girl
to whom Daddy’s words meant a lot?

What happened to the little girl
who set sights on many a goal?
Where is that little girl
who’s heart in my hands I did hold?

What happened to the little girl
who has given up on her dreams?
Where is that little girl
for that is exactly what it seems

What happened to the little girl
whose words used to be so true?
Where is that little girl
what’s happened, what’s done this to
you?

Where ever is that little girl
I pray she knows this:
That she still has my love
though her way’s gone amiss.

Copyright © 2oo5 by Lance Trottier

You Bring LJT ‘o4

You bring sunshine
to even my darkest of days
You light up my life
with your love’s bright rays
You bring a new life
in even your simplest of ways
In every day of my life
a major role your love plays
In my heart and my soul
your image burned forever stays

Copyright ©2004 Lance Trottier All rights reserved

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